It finally happened. The day that only a year ago seemed so far off. The day that caused me to feel pride and anxiety for the future all at the same time.
My son is officially walking on his own. Not those first tentative steps that foreshadow a day to come. Nope, he is walking entirely on his own (see video below).
As I watch him walk around the house, beaming with pride in his accomplishment, I am reminded of just how fast time is flying by!
Before I know it he will be speaking in complete sentences and then in the blink of an eye, we’ll be discussing his first car.
It makes my heart hurt just thinking about it. No matter how hard I try the moments continue to slip through my fingers. All too often, the time I would rather spend with my son is taken up by responsibilities of life and occasionally my own selfishness need for downtime.
It’s this fear that I struggle with every day — have I put in enough effort as a dad? Have I done well in teaching him those things he needs to know?
I understand that he is only 1.5-years-old. But there are still lessons to impart.
I’m sure these feelings are normal for dads. I just wish there was some way to know how well I am doing, a daddy report card.
I’m sure as he gets older, my son will begin to let me know how well he thinks I’m doing. I remember being a teenager. But until then, I pray every night that God will cover my mistakes. To step in and fill any gaps where as a human father, I wasn’t enough.
As he takes his first steps, I hope he knows just how proud I am of the little man that he has become, that I couldn’t love him more than I already do and that should he ever fall I will be there to catch him.
I’m beginning to understand in a new way God’s love for his children. Being a dad is teaching me a lot and the biggest lesson is, that we have no promise of tomorrow, so don’t waste time.
There is plenty more that I could say. I could continue to pour out my heart but instead, I’m going to use the extra time to spend with my family and I challenge you to do the same.
“Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapour, that appeareth for a little time, and then vanisheth away.”
– James 4:14